Well my anxiety almost pushed me over the edge today.  I started an anxiety attack around noon and it just stuck with me through my workout and it really affected my performance.  I was getting so mad!!  Of course that doesn’t help it subside at all.  I had so much trouble trying to catch my breath it was ridiculous.  At one point I needed to walk out of the room, find a cooler area, just to catch my breath.  My shoulders and chest were hurting today.  So, whenever I went to take a deep breath I stopped suddenly because of the pain…this didn’t help the situation either.  I almost went for the medication today but went upstairs for a back rub instead.  That definitely helped J

Although it was slow, and I was pretty much left standing alone, I finished my workout.  I felt myself slipping back into stalling, one of my old bad habits.  Each time I caught myself doing this, I did more reps.  We had to do 50 reps each of 18 or 19 different exercises.  I definitely worked up a great sweat.  Even though my arms were basically for ornamental purposes today, I still did ok.

My diet, once again, was close to perfect today and I am excited to say that I have been consistently getting in a gallon of water each day.  Which, without a doubt, I need considering how much I’ve been sweating.  I am due for a weigh in Friday morning.  I’m pretty nervous about it.  I know I’ve done well with my eating, but my fear is how I will handle what the scale tells me.  I know I’m losing fat, I’m losing inches, but there is something about that darn number, that I know doesn’t mean much, that can make or break me. Knowing how much I’ve lost in the past 6 weeks, I’m expecting to hit a plateau or stay the same.  I don’t think I’ll gain weight since we haven’t done heavy weights. 

Today with the exception of my anxiety was a good day. I’m praying that my anxiety goes away sooner than later.  The good thing is that I see an end in sight.  We have a couple of dates as to when all this craziness that has gotten to me will be done.

I am keeping a longtime friend in my prayers.  She is going through so much lately and just received more bad news.  She is a lady who has dedicated her life to her family, who is completely exhausted, and who needs all the prayers she can get.