"Sometimes we expect more from others because we would be willing to do that much for them."

A friend of mine posted this quote on Facebook this evening; "Sometimes we expect more from others because we would be willing to do that much for them."  This one sentence has opened my eyes to something I’ve been trying to figure out for months now.

Has anyone ever told you that you expect too much from them or you just feel disappointed because something didn’t go the way you thought it would?  I have; more often then I should. Whenever I feel that way I question myself as to why I often feel disappointed when it comes to others and this quote had completely answered my own question. 

I am actually feeling pretty relieved now that I understand this.  Figuring out something new about me is a great way to close out the day.  So, if I ever seem disappointed or if you get the impression that I expect too much from you, please keep in mind that it is simply because I am willing to do that much, probably even more, for you J

Today was a pretty good day. Did work, worked out, then went to the beach with my boys and friends.  My eating was pretty close to perfect; I drank lots of water, and got in a great workout.

Speaking of my workout…I am re-learning pushups.  I can’t do a regular pushup yet so for a while I did them on my knees.  To make them more challenging, the trainer taught me how to do them on my toes but in a “snaking” sort of way, which worked well for me for a while.  I always started chest to the ground lifting my chest first then making a “snaking” motion until I was on my toes.  Today we attempted lifting my butt first then my chest. What a mess haha.  Of course it was real bad because I was over thinking, but I will say it was pretty funny and extremely awkward.  But, all in all the workout was a good one.  I was sweating SO much again and my upper arms and shoulders felt like Jell-O and were shaky the rest of the day.

My freak’n anxiety was in high gear again today.  This is beginning to make me crazy; I hate it.  I know there is much stress due to a situation currently being dealt with.  However, I believe some of it is coming from my weight loss.

I am so close to getting past a point that I haven’t been past in about 17 years.  Whenever I think about it the anxiety kicks in. I was thinking today about my next weigh in, which is this coming Friday, and the anxiety kicked in.  It sounds silly, I know it does, but getting to that point is so frightening to me yet not getting to that point would be devastating. I’m so confused yet excited and truly so scared…all at the same time.