I was sitting in bed about 10 minutes thinking how much better my anxiety has been over the past 2 days…and now it’s acting up haha.  It’s not bad at all, just some shortness of breath…maybe it’s just gas, who knows.

Today went well!  Got lots done at work and had fun while doing it. Got home, settled down with the boys and ate dinner.  Then did a run…it was pretty fun haha…I can’t believe I actually typed that.  I LOVE the interval runs!  I think I may have to do the entire half marathon as an interval run hehe.  I need to run a 5k this weekend and time it.  The last one I did took almost 46 minutes; that was 9 weeks ago.  I’m hoping my times improved.  It should, I’m 20lbs lighter and have been making some decent progress.  I have no plans to run with anyone this weekend L I need to figure out how to get past this soon…real soon.  I need to get in a run tomorrow and Sunday; got to catch up on my running plan.

By running 3 days in a row, I’m hoping it will help my weight loss.  I’m due for a weigh in next Friday.  I’m reluctantly excited about it.  I am just a few pounds away from going under 200 lbs.  I NEED to get this done.  It haunts me…haha…okay so I’m being dramatic but still.  I haven’t been below 200 in about 16 years.  I was thrilled beyond relief when I got under 300lbs. I can’t wait to see how it feels to go under 200…thinking about it makes me smile and sort of giggle J

Here’s something new I noticed about myself.  I have always struggled with accepting compliments.  I still do, but this past week, so many have commented on my weight loss and my response with a huge smile on my face is simply, “thanks!”  Whenever people complimented me in the past I just joked about it, or said something like only 100 more pounds to go.  I could never bring myself to just say thanks.  Not sure why; maybe it’s that undeserving complex I seem to have or because I always gave the credit for my weight loss to so many others.  Lately, more and more I realize it wasn’t anybody but me who lost all this weight…yup, I did have the best support system ever and I’ve learned so much, but even still it was me.  Just like it was me who gained the weight, it was me who plateaued, and it was me who pretty much screwed things up for a while.

Apparently I screwed up my eating, my workouts, I let so many things slip away for a while.  I wasted time, only when it comes to my weight loss though.  My weight loss suffered while I worked on other areas; things that had to be resolved in order to continue my weight loss journey and to reach my goals.

So my next goal to reach, get under 200 lbs.!  It will be a week of great eating, running and tough workouts!