Today was a pretty exciting day.  Joe had orientation at School of the Arts today.  It was great!  I’ve never been to a more organized event.  We received just about all he needs for the first day of school.  Text books, schedule, bus schedule, etc.  It was an all day event.  They ended it with a family picnic that included hot dogs and all the fixings, chips, soda, and sundaes.  Joe and the rest of us had a great time.

Something so odd happened to me while we were at orientation.  I started to sweat profusely.  That never ever happens to me for no reason.  I was literally dripping with sweat, my clothes were wet, and I could feel beads of sweat dripping down my scalp…so weird.  Not sure what that was all about.  Even while inside, in the freezing air conditioned rooms, the sweat did not stop. I think it’s about time I pay a visit to the doctor.

We started our Boot Camp group challenge today.  I struggled just a bit with it.  Instead of writing food down we have to take pictures and post them.  Great way to keep everyone accountable.  I have been doing great for over a month straight, I didn’t eat anything I wouldn’t normally eat, but there was something about having to take a picture that threw me haha.  This is going to be lots of fun for all of us!

My anxiety is still going pretty strong.  Lately, I can pinpoint the moments I would normally binge.  Since I’ve had my binging under control, I am more aware of my emotions than ever.  I don’t remember ever having such a positive, controlled sense of control.  It feels great and has also made me more aware of the negative control issues I have.  I’ve also been sort of subdued lately.  I’m kind of feeling like I just don’t have the energy to deal with nonsense. 

Of course everything I do, think, and feel, affects my eating.  It’s always been so terrible, but not lately.  I have been doing so well with my eating.  And doing well with my eating of course causes me to lose weight, which in turn, is making my running better.  Running has been an experience I never expected.  I’m not saying that I will become a marathoner by any means, but, I actually look forward to my runs, especially the interval runs, to see how I do and how much I improved.

Today’s run was tough.  I have realized how much the weather plays a role in how well I do.  I thought today was the day running would do me in.  I was so achy, even my shoulders were hurting from moving my arms back and forth.  I had to go right in the house and drink lots of water, put a cold wet cloth on my neck and try to stop hyperventilating.  TJ didn’t understand why I was struggling so much.  When you read what needs to be done with this type of run, its sounds easy…but it’s not at all.  He realized that when he tried it J