I am trying to figure out why I have so much trouble doing my box jumps.  When I step in front of a box my mind starts racing, I tell myself to start jumping on 3 but then by body defies my mind and just stands there.

I know I have a fear of tripping over the box, it’s never happened but that’s my fear, and what I’m trying to figure out.  What’s the worst thing that could happen if I tripped? I’m sure I’ll bleed, be somewhat humiliated, that would be it.  It’s like I’ll be condemned to hell if I trip.

At that moment, I totally forgot about the book I am currently reading teaches to change your thought process.  I’ve been working hard at focusing on my thoughts and “correcting” them.  I wish I wasn’t so caught up in my negative thoughts so I could have done better.  What running used to be is now what box jump has become.  I defeated running, now I have to do the same with box jumps.

 I was doing real well with my workouts for a while, but so far this week I’m feeling like they have just been okay.  I need for them to be better them okay.

Speaking of running, one of the ladies from the Monday night group commented on yesterday’s blog that my running was great...WOW!  I knew it improved, but I never thought it would be considered great.  I was so excited to read that…it made my day.  I meant to ask my trainer what he thought about my running last night…I’ll try to remember to ask him tomorrow.

My anxiety has been acting up again; we have an appointment Thursday, this is the 2^nd to last “step” of what we are dealing with.  I’m ready to move forward now!  But we definitely will be moving forward by the end of October.

Other than that I been feeling okay, positive, and optimistic.  I’ve been extremely tired lately, and that may be what’s affecting my workouts. I am reading before I blog, last night I fell asleep blogging twice before I decided it was time to finish up and go to sleep…sort of like what’s happening now haha.