Feeling pretty exhausted today but I feel like I held up pretty well.  Today was a bit stressful but I got lots done and tied up a lose end so now I can continue to move forward. I’m trying to prepare myself for many changes but it doesn’t seem to be working very well.  I have such issues with change and it sometimes takes me a while to realize the good in it.  The crazy thing is while I’m panicking over change, others have already changed and I’m sort of standing alone anyway.

I’m feeling sort of down today.  I was all confused during today workout…I’m not sure if it was me or my partner haha., I even had to get myself out of the kitchen quickly because I felt a binge coming on.  I’m so afraid I’m going to break my “winning streak”; it’s well over a month since I had one of my binging episodes.  That’s just huge for me.  I’m feeling real different lately, almost as if something changed me.  I’m not sure if I’m just numb or if I just gave up.  Maybe the “new” me still cares but realizes I don’t need express how much I do.  I think most of us know that when we say or show how much we care we end up with a pain in our heart.

Our nutrition challenge seems to be going well. I’ve been real good but I am slacking on taking my fish oil.  My stomach has been so upset lately that just the thought of swallowing fish oil makes me nauseous.  I’m going to attempt it again tomorrow. 

It feels so good to have my eating and workouts back on track and they seem to be getting better.  It’s been a while since I’ve been to this point.  Praying that it keeps up…I can’t afford to stop now, nor do I want to.