I think there may be someone I actually like somewhere inside of me...She's almost completely "unburied"

Well I’m still on my losing streak!  I lost 4 more pounds.  That’s 20 in just 8 weeks.  My goal was to lose 20 by the time the half marathon came around and that’s still about 12 weeks away.  So I guess I need to set a new goal…hmmm…I think I’ll try for 10 more since I’m expecting my weight loss to slow down. 

I’m so excited and relieved about this.  I feel so good about my progress and myself.  Something changed somewhere…I’m not sure exactly what it was, but it changed me, the way I think, and the way I feel about some things in my life.  I almost feel like I detached myself from a couple of things.  Maybe I just prioritized things going on in my life…I’m really not sure.

Today turned out well.  I was excited from the start of the day.  I’m beginning to like what I’m becoming; I think I just may be feeling somewhat secure for the first time in a long time…if ever.  I can’t wait to see how the next few weeks ago.  My diet is going great, I’m going to work harder at making my workouts more intense and more consistent…I think it’s better than what it was, but it can always improve.

I haven’t worked out with the Monday night group in a while.  I tried to get back to them last week but I was overwhelmed with anxiety.  For some reason when I think of going back I get anxious.  Not a negative anxious and excited, positive kind of anxious, but because of other things going on in my crazy life that positive anxiety turns into a panic attack.

It’s back to running again tomorrow.  I’m looking forward to it.  I already made an appointment to run Sunday morning at 630 AM and I know that this run will be tough since this “running coach” is relentless.  I’m also seriously considering re-doing Thursday’s workout.  I haven’t been able to stop thinking about it.  I really should have been able to finish it and it’s really getting to me that I didn’t.

Still lots of work to do on me and lots of progress to make…but what I am doing is working.  And what even better is that it’s still working during a very trying time for me.  I’m seeing things so clearly, I’m not making excuses for myself or anyone else…doing this has really made a difference in the last couple of weeks.