It was a pretty good day today, although a few things at work through me off.  I didn’t sleep well last night, I’m trying to figure out why every 5^th night or so I get a pretty good night’s sleep.  I’ve been trying to go to bed at 11 and that seems to be helping a little bit but I am still exhausted during the day.  I was driving home this evening and while stopped at a red light I actually nodded off…terrible.

Not sure what to do with this.  I received some good advice from a friend so I will have to follow through on her suggestions.  I’m do for a physical and all that other fun stuff so if anything is going on, other than stress, I’ll find out…I hope.

Our workouts this week were pretty great. My arms are killing me tonight!  My eating has been real good to. I’m actually looking forward to repeating a run from week 4 and completing week 5 of my running plan this weekend.  I won’t be weighing myself this weekend; I decided to keep it to every 2 weeks.

We have a pretty busy weekend ahead of us.  We have friends coming in from NC.  Should be lots of fun, we are really looking forward to it.  I’ll have sneak in some nap time somewhere in there haha.

I still have lots on my mind, still doubting some decisions and sort of confused.  Just pushing through all this and trying to be patient with myself and some others. 

I’m trying pretty hard to keep the stress off my face but every once in a while I get caught with it on. I don’t want it to be noticeable and I don’t want to bring others down so I think it’s best for me to remove myself from some things for a while or for that moment so I don’t have a negative effect on anyone else. For example, after the workout today one of the ladies said something like “Maria looks so happy”, I know she wasn’t being mean, she just caught me deep in thought about something and made that comment.  I remember when people used to say more positive things about my presence.  At one point it was fun, and nice to have me around and since that’s the way I prefer it, I think removing myself will help me be more aware so I won’t bring anyone down or add tension.