I have a 12 year old…wow; I can’t believe it!  I remember the day he was born; it was the most amazing day of my life.  My emotions were all over the place (haha, surprise).  I never experienced more of an undeserving feeling like I did that day.  After all I’ve been through and all I gave up I never thought the day would come when I would be able to embrace my own child. He was the sweetest looking little thing ever…even though he was hairy and looked a bit Asian.  He even had little forceps marks on his little head.

Poor Nick had so many struggles throughout his life but I believe it all had molded him into the fine young man he is today.  I’m really looking forward to watching him blossom into a teenager (I think) haha.  He is one of the best gifts God has given me.

Today has certainly been a day of reflection for me.  So much to think about, so much to work on; it seems to be never ending and exhausting at times.  No doubt I cause the never endingness and exhaustion myself therefore I know that I have the ability to continue change.  I wish self-improvement was instantaneous; what I wouldn’t do for that at this point.

Since I’ve started losing weight changes were constant.  There were so many more positive changes than negative, tons of positive changes.  But it was the few negative aspects and my fears that came out of those changes that are so pronounced and seem to linger and interfere with things.  Move forward I will as I pray for patience with myself and that others find it in them to be patient with me.  I need sleep to; that is not helping anything at all.  Is even to the point where TJ told me I need to take something to help me sleep. 

My eating was good, I did have a piece of cake for Nick’s birthday but it was small.  Drank my water and got lots of exercise going back and forth to the bathroom.  I’m feeling sort of proud of this.  It feels so good to be back on track. Today’s workout was a good, tough one, I did okay with it.  I could have done better so I’ll just have to push harder tomorrow.  My knee has been bothering me for a while now.  But for some reason it barely bothered me today J  what a relief!  There was something about that sumo deadlift high pull/squat press workout from yesterday that worked wonders for me.

Just a quick update on our fitness challenge at work.  Although we don’t know who the winner is, we do know that over 104lbs was lost collectively. WOW!!!  I’m so excited!  I’m trying to come up with a way to keep the motivation going…would love to keep everyone engaged and to keep moving towards their goals!!