Been struggling this week;  there is lots of discomfort in my back which always results in increased numbness...it’s so frustrating.  Today, for some reason, I experienced quite a few back spasms, not sure what’s going on and why this seems to be worse this week.

I've been racking my brain trying to figure out what my next course of action for my back should be.  Someone recommended I try their chiropractor so I may give him a shot and of course when I see the neurologist for my second opinion I will ask what he recommends.  There's just got to be something out there that can make this go away, right? Right!

Otherwise, things are going well but I ran into a few problems on the program my functional neurologist put me on.  It's tough having to take all kinds of supplements and eat perfectly for 3 weeks straight.  I've been experiencing cramping in my stomach and bloating.  I’m not sure if it was from not adhering to the plan completely or if it’s my body reacting to the supplements. The doc and I discussed it and he said to keep going so, keep going I will.

Things are still going well on the home front. Another thing has come to light as a result of the Love & Respect seminar.  I realized this week I have my best results in life while being lead.  In fact, anything I’ve been successful at has had someone else leading it, planning it, starting it, etc.  Not saying by any means I am dependent on anyone or anything, I am independent. But when I am not resisting I can take direction real well.  Even with minimal direction, if someone tells me what they want their end result to be I can usually make it happen. Execution and maintenance is something I realized I am good at.

There has always been someone inside of me that has felt the need to control, to take over, to do whatever had to be done to get something done the way I think it needed to be done.  And of course when it comes to one person wanting to control a situation that is not really theirs to control, problems arise.  I thought a lot about that this week and felt like I needed to surrender my urges to take control and stick to what I know I’m good at.  I really think this will bring more peace of mind to me.  I’ve already had so much since the seminar I’m thinking why not add a little bit more J