Monday, Monday...I'm grateful it's coming to an end.  It was a good day for the most part; I'm just over tired from a semi-stressful day and lack of sleep last night. 

I'm excited about something new I was introduced to.  It's a page on Facebook where local moms post pictures of items hey are selling, in search of, questions they may have, etc.  I posted a few things; one being my son's bike that we tried to sell in on our neighborhoods website, at a garage sale, and on Craigslist; we had no luck.  I posted on this Facebook page and it sold within 30 minutes!  I was so excited; we met earlier today to exchange the bike for some much needed cash.  We decided to put our Hess Trucks on there to.  I sold 7 within a few hours!  Its fun and pretty darn exciting and this is part of the reason why I lost sleep last night haha apparently moms are selling and buying once the husbands are snoring away. 

During the past month we have been consolidating, cleaning things out, and getting rid of things.  Between this page, the garage sale, and some jewelry we got rid of we've made over $3300 and put it all towards stuff we are paying off, including all the Christmas gifts we had on layaway.  Now that's exciting!  We are slowly but surely crawling out of a hole this crazy economy and our money management skills (or lack there of) has gotten us into.  It feels great to be headed in the right direction. 

Diet and exercise is going pretty well.  I didn't weigh this past Friday.  I don't want to get into the habit of over weighing.  I'll weigh every 3-4 weeks to ensure I don't get sidetracked again.  Since I started this just about 3 1/2 weeks ago I am down 12lbs...not to bad.

I have a strong sense that more change is coming my way.  Unpredictable change puts stress on me big time.  What I'm sensing may not be good at all.  I'm going to do my best to stay focused and not let this get the best of me.  In the mean time, while decisions are being made I am going to sit tight and pray that any effects we experience will be positive for our family.

The next couple of weeks are chock full of doctors appointments and follow up test...yippee!  I will say this, I am looking forward to my appointment with my neurologist.  He's a pretty funny guy.  He has a great way of explaining things to me.  I think its a little silly that he's sending me for a follow up MRI AFTER my appointment next week but what do I know anyway.  The great thing is, I am not stressing over the upcoming test, appointments, etc.  For the last year, whenever I was waiting on test results, doctors appointment, and anything else related to this silly diagnosis I would literally make myself sick with worry, my eating was out of control at times, and my focus was gone.  I can't live like this anymore; not when I will be going through these follow ups every 6 months or so; I'll never accomplish the things I want to if I don't change completely.

I have lots of prayers for many friends, family, and others.  Seems like everyone is going through something.  I know with the holidays being just around the corner things seem to be worse.  Because I feel strongly that my purpose on this earth is to help and/or serve others I've tried hard, too hard at times, to help many.  Many times there was success, other times it was an epic fail but no matter what the outcome was, there was a tremendous amount of stress placed on me, by me.  I'm taking a step back from my own need to help and serve others to alleviate the stress I cause myself.  I am tired, I need a break and I'm hoping that once things settle I will be able to help others with a clear head and no stress like I have prior to the past year.

I'm looking forward to changes I'll be making and I will do my best to embrace any changes that others will be making.  I have a feeling this year is going to end with a "BANG".