I am so proud of my boys!!  They are absolutely all that brings joy to me.  Joe had his final performance for the season this weekend.  It was great!  We have got some seriously talented, funny kids here in Charleston.  Justin had a huge accomplishment this weekend as well.  He took swimming lessons for 2 months and did well.  At the end of each class they practiced diving.  He struggled with it and never really got it; clearly he was to nervous.  Today we spent some time at the pool and our neighbor taught Justin how he learned to dive and Justin got it!!  It was a very exciting moment for him.

All weekend I’ve been throwing lots of things around in my head.  Not exactly what I needed since things were so chaotic…very fun…but extremely chaotic since it was Joe’s performance weekend.  I am still pretty hung up on getting back into therapy…why?  Well for one thing I had a conversation this past week that just help me to put so many things in perspective.  It was sort of a general conversation, not specific to any one thing, but it helped me.  It was simply encouraging and optimistic and fairly quick.  I walked away feeling pretty good, it stuck with me and it helped get me through the week.

Knowing that my therapy options are slim to none at this point I did some research online and found a website about overcoming binge eating that may be something to utilize temporarily.  I downloaded some “tips” they offer that seem to make sense.  Not all really apply to me but some of it does.  I think the key, for me, is to stop myself dead in my tracks and change directions…literally.  I feel like I need to run for cover when this is happening.  I’m just not sure what to do with myself when I do stop.  That’s what I need to pray and think about.  I have found that I was able to avoid binging by shopping HOWEVER binge shopping is something that I really cannot afford to get started haha…that could be even more of a disaster. 

I am carefully working on formulating a plan for myself that will hopefully work.  I need to be careful since putting too much pressure on me may break my focus.  It seems so ridiculous and it is very frustrating but I really believe I can fix this, I need to fix this, my life has some kind of purpose, I won’t be able to figure out what the purpose and move forward until my eating issues are under control.

For the most part the weekend was great… highs and lows…a few tears and lots of laughs but no complaints just many thanks to God for awesome people He has blessed me with.