A great day today! Feeling good, mentally and emotionally, about lots of things. Physically feeling pretty crappy because I think I might be getting sick. My ear is hurting and the top of my head is hurt to the touch…weird. I’m tired and would have loved to sleep today away.
Had a few anxious moments about Nick and his homework but I think we have come up with a solution that should solve the problem…and eliminate any excuses he tries to give for not doing it. Yesterday he explained to me how he believes his short term memory is not working…hmmm.
I stress over Nick so much. I’m always worrying about how he is doing, wherever he is. I worry about the friends he makes at school, the ones I don’t know. I can’t help but wonder what kind of influence they have over him. Nick can be so naive at times. I’m afraid that he may be lead to do something he shouldn’t. He is such a good kid and has pretty good logic when it comes to what's right and wrong. But I also know that, like any other child, he wants to be accepted and because of some of his signs or symptoms from Asperger’s, he may not be as quickly as others. It also takes a while for Nick to warm up to others but once he does and he has trust in them I’m afraid his sense of logic will be affected.
Work was pretty good…I have been putting off 1 or 2 things that I need to focus on. I need to push my ADHD to the side and get these things done.
Had a great conversation with my trainer about eggs. I decided to cut back on my eggs because my bad cholesterol was elevated. The only thing I could attribute that to was the eggs. Since my cholesterol ratio was "phenomenal" as he put it; so why bother cutting out the eggs…they will be back in my diet as they were and I am very excited. Oh it’s the little things that put a smile on my face,
Also been thinking about my feeling about being disregarded. I mentioned earlier that I don’t place expectations on people yet I feel disappointed by their action, or even more so, lack thereof. I realized that it doesn’t have to do with my expectations but everything to do with I don’t deserve to be treated this way. But that’s enough about that…
Well I forgot about my almonds again. I have them in the pantry; I just need to grab them on my way out to work. They are an important part of this diet I’m hoping my brain will be functioning early in the morning.
Here’s what I ate today. I was much more satisfied than I’ve been since I started.
7: 2 eggs with mushrooms an onion sautéed, 4 slices of turkey’s bacon. 6 oz. prune juice
12:00 Ground chicken with onions, 1 cup of lettuce
145 Protein shake
6:00 8 oz. steak sautéed with mushrooms, onions, olive oil
It may not seem like a lot of food, but it’s enough. I feel very satisfied.
My workout was pretty good today to. My legs were burning so bad! I did make on the rowing machine today (Woo Hoo). Tj and I did it together. I did 500 meters than he did, I did 300 meters than he did, we did a total of 1100 meters this evening. It was lots of fun.
That’s about it for tonight…looking forward o completing my first week. The weekends are always a big challenge for me to stay on track. I’m determined this time to get through this without any cheats. That feeling of determination is a wonderful one.
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