Been thinking lots about the appointment I had with a neurologist Thursday.  Feeling somewhat relieved that things made sense yet more afraid then before that I do actually have MS.  I was convinced I did not have it, that I was misdiagnosed since I, and 2 or 3 other doctors, associated all the pain and numbness with my back. 

After all the doctor had to say, I am preparing myself to move out of denial mode and into acceptance.  With that, there are things to consider once again like telling my boys, treatment options, etc.  The great thing is that I feel like I am much more familiar with MS and how it may be affecting me.

My focus now is not to become consumed, again, by this and allow it to take me over.  I need to remain focused on keeping my life balanced right from my family, work, friends, and eating, especially my eating.  When I throw my eating off there is a crazy domino effect and everything goes out of whack.  I’ve been working hard at making very positive changes as far as perspective, attitude, etc.  goes…the last thing I want to do is undo what I’ve accomplished so far.  My life has been so much more gratifying with those changes made.