Things were off to a great start today.  Went to church this morning; what great service.  I realized on the way home that my perspective  has changed in so many areas; the way I think and the way I feel about some things.  Is it a good thing?  I'm pretty sure it is.I'm just surprised...I'm surprised about so many things lately, especially changes in my life.  Beginning with the way I look, feel, and how I think about things.  Trying to figure out people in my life, as they try to figure me out as well. My boys are changing so much now I need to figure them out all over again.  So many changes for someone who struggles with change...YIKES!

Been thinking a lot lately about some friends, how things have changed, and how I should approach some things or concerns I have.  I wonder if its even worth saying anything at all.  There are times when we feel like we are always there for people, but it's at their convenience. Its even to the point with a couple of people, that I can almost predict when I might hear from them.  What do you do with that?

Softball season has begun!  We had our first game today, that we had to forfeit because we were short 2 people, however, the other team agreed to have a scrimmage.  It was fun, it felt good to get back to playing.

My eating has been great.  I'm loving that even though I feel completely damaged (physically), aggravated and emotional about this whole back thing, I'm not doing any emotional eating or binging,  I wish I could explain what a great feeling this is.  I love it!  I feel like I have broken away from something that has weighed me down and literally controlled my life for years and years.

Within the past few weeks some great changes were made; there's been closure, perspective, how I feel about some and how I deal with them.  I realized with some people that I was angry at them...I didn't realize it for a long time.  I just thought, well I'm not sure what I thought.  But one day I realized I was angry, I figured out why, I dealt with it, and let it go. All this has changed because of a series being done at church...it's amazing.

The one thing I wanted to change 2 1/2 years ago has led to so much more, in so many different areas of my life...and its all good.