I’m becoming a bit concerned about the pain in my legs.  The soreness is unbearable this evening.  I had to leave Justin’s baseball practice because I was so uncomfortable sitting down and I wanted to get home and get on the foam roller and lacrosse ball.  Well, the foam roller was out of the question.  I couldn’t stay on there for more than about 30 seconds.  I was literally in tears.  My right leg is throbbing now.  Usually, while doing this, it is very painful, but once I’m done it feels pretty good; not tonight for some reason.  We talked about fish oil today and increasing it.  No doubt this will help with pain, so I’ll be ordering lots this week.

Today’s workout was pretty good, during the workout we were trying to correct my squats…I didn’t realize what a mess they were haha.  We had a few laughs over that.  I was trying too hard and over thinking it way to much that m lower back and knee started to hurt a bit haha.

Eating went real well today; the weekend was a bit rough but I got through it.  Running was off this weekend as well.  I’m planning to run again Thursday night or Friday morning.  I’m really looking forward to doing this without any pain…fingers crossed.

I’ve been reading a book by Joyce Meyer called Battlefield of the Mind.  Amazing how you can read something and feel as if the book was written just for you.  I’m really learning lots about myself and how to handle and redirect my thoughts.  One thing I learned while reading last night was that I am a “worry addict”.  How crazy is that?  It specifically says in the book, “if they do not have something of their own to worry about, they will worry over someone else’s situation.”  That is exactly what I do.  It then goes on to say that, “It is absolutely impossible to worry and live in peace at the same time”.  I never thought about it this way, yet it is so obvious.  I always prayed for peace of mind, which I rarely had.  Now I understand why, I couldn’t stop the worrying.  It’s almost like a comfort zone since I made it such an important part of my life…that just sounds crazy.  Oh well…moving forward and not worrying; well working on it anyway J 

Tomorrow is our 13^th wedding anniversary…I can’t believe how quickly that went. It’s times like this that I realize how time flies by and I realize that there is no time for tears, anger, bitterness and all those fun negative things in life I would allow to dictate my day.  I love the changes I’m making and how I’ve been feeling about my life.  I’m so thankful to God that TJ and I are able to work through our differences, talk about changes, laugh, love and be happy whether it’s just the 2 of us or the 5 us.  He has accepted so many changes because of me over the past two and half years; changes that affected our relationship, our boys, our lives in almost every way.  He stuck with me, supported me, kept me grounded, and loved me unconditionally. I could never thank him enough for all he does for our family.  Happy anniversary TJ!

Still praying for comfort and peace for a sweet little girl who is still fighting hard.  Please keep her and her family in your prayers; they are in need now more than ever.