As the date of the half marathon nears I’m finding that I doubt myself more and more.  I’m not sure what in the world I was thinking when I signed up for this haha.  Is it normal to feel this way?  I’ve gotten some good advice from a co-worker whose done marathons and triathlons and who is doing an Iron Man the same weekend I do the half.

I don’t think I’ll be able to run the entire distance, the entire time.  I was hoping I could, but I don’t see it happening.  I know I set my expectations kind of high, but aren’t we supposed to do that to motivate and push ourselves harder? 

I think the only thing that’s making me feel better at this point is that I committed to doing this and I’m working towards it.  I set a goal to lose 20 lbs. before the event and I lost 23lbs at the half way point, I learned to run and I learned to like it to, I even look forward to my runs.  Well, even if I don’t do as well as I wanted to, I think lots of good things came out of preparing for this.

I’m not planning to run again until Saturday.  My legs have been sore but they are feeling better today.  We worked on upper body today, tomorrow I’ll take the day off then run Saturday morning.  I’m hoping the break that my legs are getting will help get my workout back to where they were.  I think the pain slowed me down; it was definitely a distraction that’s for sure.

The eating has been good…at this point I have to put more effort into cheating then preparing for healthier eating.  Don’t get me wrong, it’s easy to cheat, my point is that when I prepare for meals, it’s effortless since I made this lifestyle change.  I don’t have to rack my brains trying to figure what I need to eat.

Yesterday was our 13^th wedding anniversary; we had a nice day, a great dinner, and spent some quiet time alone together. The boys were telling us we need to go out and do something fun…haha…they are so funny; I think they just try to get rid of us sometimes. J