Spitting, spitting, spitting…all day.  Yup, that’s what I did.  I had to fill up 3 vials of saliva which will be mailed to a lab tomorrow.  I needed to fill ¾ of the vile…that’s a lot of spit.  It wasn’t fun but I did it!  This is the test they are doing for hormones; I never thought they would be able to detect hormone levels in saliva.  These results will take about 3 weeks to get back.  I really dislike playing this waiting game.

The day went fairly quickly and it went well.  I finished my budget and it was submitted to our VP for review.  Next step is it will either be sent to the board for approval or come back to us to tweak.  Whatever happens next, I really am thankful I was given the opportunity to go through the process.  I sat with my boss the other day and we reviewed my performance.  I was given a “self-review” to do which I sent back to her.  With are both in agreement, I am pretty awesome J Haha, just kidding.  But we were in agreement on almost everything.  We decided I need to start working/training for my SHRM Certification (Human Resource Certification).  I hear the test is brutal but at this point, with all my experience, and with what we review I should pass. 

The last 2 nights I’ve been spending time doing makeup homework with Nick.  He has been overwhelmed with homework and very slack.  He will be making it all up this week and during the winter break (He doesn’t know that part yet).  He is such a smart kid it frustrates the heck out of me that he does this.  He and I went through 5 chapters in a book and answered 5 questions for each chapter in less than 40 minutes.  He was supposed to do a chapter and 5 questions each night…instead he chose to do none…ugh!  I explained to him that it wouldn’t take him more than 10 minutes a night to do this.  That sweet boy needs to get his butt in gear, this semester ends soon after they return from break and he is on the verge of failing 2 classes.

I was a reluctantly excited about the first part of my workout today.  I had to do 15 squat presses, 15 burpees as many rounds as possible in 10 minutes.  The number of rounds completed actually kind of sucked…big time.  However, I was able to do burpees for the first time in months.  It wasn’t easy, my form probably got sloppy, and I became winded pretty quickly.  I’m just excited that we picked up another exercise and I was able to do it WITHOUT PAIN J  My eating went well to; those two things are definitely going hand in hand lately…as they always should. 

I’ve been feeling pretty good about the way I’ve been controlling my emotions lately.  I was able to express the way I feel in a positive way without reacting, crying, and making myself out to be the victim and to my surprise, everything turned out to be fine.  I have this overwhelming fear that if I express my feelings people will just walk away from me.  In the past, I’ve felt as though my feelings and I were disregarded so instead of expressing how I feel I go into a panic, shutdown mode; never a fun thing to go through.

Lots of prayers going out for all kinds of positive things. The last couple of weeks have been amazing as I see things unfold. A friend of mine and I have decided take advantage of the “buddy system” and get through a rough patch and support each other.  What I have been going through is nothing compared to her experiences.  We have been both praying for each other and ourselves, I requested my Bible Study group pray for her as well, which we did, and I’m sure many others are praying as well. When I spoke to her yesterday she shared so much great news.  She has broken out of her rut; relief and happiness has given her renewed hope.

She is one of the people who told me not to worry, to trust in God and pass my worries to him.  I now see, and feel, why this is so important to do AND, more than that, it is possible to do. I have never been so aware of and had so many experiences in seeing the difference prayer makes in our lives.