It's Been Too Long...

I miss blogging!  I miss sharing the craziness in my life.  I thought it was helping me at first then I couldn't help but wonder if it started hurting me; now I wonder which it really was.  I was able to get things out, which is a good thing.  Its so hard to just talk about things to any one person so I wrote it down and whoever cared would read it and those who didn't want to or didn't have time to didn't have to.  Does anyone out there have that one person?  One person who understands, doesn't judge, doesn't react, makes sense out of things, is there at any given moment for you...does anyone really have anyone like that in their life?  Not so sure a person like that exists.

Same old ongoing challenges and taking on a couple of old challenges that I gave up on with the hopes of not failing or at least not giving up again. There are 2 new challenges on the horizon, but nothing I can share right now.  I feel pretty good about the new challenges only because it makes me feel  as if I'm not as stagnant as I think I am.  Seems like there is so much to do and never enough time in the day.

Working hard at trying to come up with a game plan for one of my little guys who seems to be struggling right now.  He has me heartbroken.  So many little things to consider and figure out.  I don't think anyone could understand the impact something like this has on emotions unless they have a child of their own.  Finding the right people to help is so hard and can be exhausting. There are days that I feel like Ive been beat up...I even look beat up at times haha.  BUT  I am smiling, I am happy just lost, frustrated, and tired at time.

I'm beginning to realize something about myself that I never wanted to believe.  But I see signs of it almost daily. Its nothing bad, not really negative, its just a realization and I need to make some adjustments and I think my life will run more smoothly; it may even be less complicated and exhausting.  I can at least give it a shot, I have nothing to lose.

Love this song.  It make me think about how things should be.
Lead Me