Progress towards anything I am trying to do stands out so much…then all of a sudden it’s like a neon light flashes “REGRESS”. I’m not referring to my diet this time, just life in general.
Like so many of us, I am working on making myself a better person. I am truly working hard at it to. I am aware of things I’ve never thought of, everything I do or say I think about and analyze and think about how it could have been better. I truly believe I’m making progress with this, it just doesn’t happen fast enough.
Bettering myself takes time, undoing 30-something years of whatever the heck did this to me just doesn’t happen because I decided I wanted to better myself. I can easily “act” like I’m better, but I like to think of myself as being genuine; not phony. I have, many times, put a smile on my face to hide some sadness, worry, etc. but that doesn’t mean I’m pretending to be something I’m not it just means that I don’t want to burden others with worry or what might weighing heavy on my mind.
I can only continue to work to make progress to become the person I want to be for myself and my family; I will continue to pray that progress is made before people I care about grow tired and walk away from the me even I am trying to escape from.
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