Since I got my head together and finally put this stupid MS diagnosis far behind me, things have been going so well. Not just with my eating but my overall perspective on life. I feel my confidence growing and with that I recognize that I have a purpose and that I add value to this crazy world we live in.
It feels great to be able to turn away from food, to have good pain after a workout, to have control over my emotions, and just not worry. It wasnt too long ago that I, for the first time ever, completely let go of something and left it in God's hands. It was one of the best experiences I ever had. No anxiety, no tears, nothing negative and it all worked out perfectly. This experience taught me a couple of things, the most important is that I learned to trust God whole heartedly. Two, worrying the way I did only wasted good energy, it caused mood swings, binge eating, and I had no patience for anything or anyone.
So, I now approach my eating like I did when I had great weight loss success...food is fuel. There is nothing comforting about it, nothing. With this "I can do this" attitude, my workouts are better. They won't be where they were for a while but they are better and the pain I have is the good pain, not the nagging, hurting kind of pain that I experienced quite a bit of last year. I have many regrets about my weight gain BUT every time I start to think about that I quickly change my mind set and remind myself that I have done it before, I will do it again.
that is right this is your last start over
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