Today, in my mind, was a pretty big day for me...I made a commitment for myself, to myself. It's back to food logs, measurements, and weigh ins. I am starting over!
I faced the scale today. That miserable damn scale...it hates me and quite frankly, I don't like it either. I don't plan to frequent it much, only as needed and its not like I have to look at it, I have someone to jot down those depressingly high numbers that will aggressively drop.
The toughest part of today was seeing, saying, and finally accepting the amount of weight I gained. There are too many things I wish I could change but I know I can't. My biggest regret is I see how much my detachment from this whole fitness thing has affected my family. My family's load widened this past year and its time for them to "narrow" along with me.
We have lots of work to do, starting over seems to be even more tough then the initial start. However, I do believe I have what I need, I learned lots last time around and I will learn more this time around. I believe this is going to workout well for me. I'm excited and feeling pretty determined!
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