The day was kind to me; I woke up cold, tired, and not ready to head back to work after 2 weeks off.  I couldn't even open my eyes when TJ leaned over to kiss me good bye...they were burning.  But once I was up and going things went well.  The boys were slow moving but did great for the first day back to school after a long break. 

Walking back into work after time off can always be unpredictable; I'm never sure what I will find on my desk when I open the door to my office...and there were some things there but there was also a nice surprise waiting for me from a pretty amazing group of ladies that just made my morning.  It was a great start to the day.

I had lots of things to look over and needed to catch up on the "goings on" once I did it was like the vacation didn't happen.  I must admit I'm so happy to be back into my routine.  I felt good today, right from my work, to eating, to my workout.

My workout...hmmm...I'm slowly getting over the fact that I regressed so much due to my injury and/or MS (whichever is causing these darn obstacles) and my lack of willpower.  For the last 2 days, my mindset is back to where it needs to be in order for me to be successful.  It frustrates me to no end though, when I get back in that mindset, why it ever went away.  I wish I could hold onto it forever.  So I was okay with my progress today, I did the workout in a fairly decent amount of time and I was able to do burpees at the end of our training session that didn't hurt me, which make me so darn happy. 

This is something that is motivating me right now...we added a couple more programs to our wellness program at work.  I am so excited about the response.  With the new programs being implemented we have 45% participation in our facility.  I wish I could verbalize how this makes me feel.  I always had this fear that the program would come to an end; I always had an odd sense of insecurity about it.  Some might think, "whats the big deal?"  It's a HUGE deal to me for a few different reasons, one being that our wellness program and the participants play a part in my own success.  I would love for many more businesses to do something similar to what we do...it's absolutely amazing.  I've had a huge goal in mind for our wellness program and we are slowly creeping towards it.  Now that I am feeling more secure that this is a solid program and there is no reason for me to worry about it ending, I can move towards that goal more aggressively.

I'm really looking forward to tomorrow, we are kicking off one of our new programs...I have a great feeling about this.  I believe it will work well for our people and once it gets started, I think we will have more people wanting to participate.

I am, however, a bit frustrated with 2 of my doctors, one being my Neurologist who I've been seeing for over 11 years.  His office is so screwed up at this point I'm considering looking for another doctor...I really need to go into HR mode and have a talk with him about this.  Then my other doctor taking days to respond to a pretty important email.

I made an appointment with a back specialist today; I'll be seeing him Friday.  I'm not thrilled about having to do this, but the pain is so bad a lot of the time that it is, not only limiting me, but it is so freak'n discouraging. And, since my neurologist is convinced that the numbness in my leg is from the MS and my Chiropractor said it's from my compressed disk, I would really like to hear what someone else thinks.  It really worries me that I may not know when I am having these "MS episodes".

Anyway...moving forward, feeling pretty good, and I have good things to look forward to.  Praying it stays this way...thankful it is this way.