Most of today was spent trying to figure out why I am so frustrated.  I was reminded during my workout today. I'm struggling so much with workouts.  I'm not relaxed, I'm afraid I'm going to hurt my back.  My leg is still numb so I don't feel very stable and I'm afraid I'm going to fall over and, after almost 2 months of nothing but stretching, I am weak. Its so frustrating to see how great I was doing 2 months ago and in just those 2 months I regressed so much.

After today's workout I stretched my right (numb) leg;  the pain was unbearable.    I'm not sure why, but the numbness in my leg intensifies the pain in my extremely tight quads. I was unable to complete the stretch the way I should have...as my son would say "epic fail".  Unfortunately that's just how I felt.  Brent had to leave right after we were done stretching so I just sat there for about 10 minutes trying to collect myself, I had to get over this feeling of anger I've been having.  When I feel this way my initial reaction is to cry...so, when I was done crying I went on with my day.

I can't even think about the half marathon any more.  That whole thing really aggravates me haha.  I just need to decide if I am going to make the attempt to walk it or just sit on my rump and watch it.  Ah, the feeling of disgust; its such a waste of time and energy...now I just need to get over it.