What a great day to spend some time with one of my boys.  It was early dismissal from school our oldest didn't have a ride home from the school bus so I took a late lunch and went to pick him up.  He came back to work with me and quietly worked on a project.  We had a deal, he had to get that done in order to attend Science Technology night at his school.  It started at 530 so we went back to his school right from work.  It was great...hi school does  things so well.  He had a blast visiting the classrooms, playing games, and trying out all different things.  It's also great to see how well he interacts with his peers and teachers.  Yes, he is goofy, but that's part of being a 13 year old.  He's so funny.

I was hoping to make it back to attend Bible study but we were so engrossed in the festivities.  I hate to break him away from anything that he is truly enjoying that has to do with school.  But I did miss those girls tonight.  They are a great spiritual fix that I can always use.

There has been a lot of pain for me today. I really had a lot of trouble with stiffness.  I know it's from working out but I don't know why it was so bad today.  I'm hoping that an increase in fish oil and water will help that.

Well I am tired after a long, productive day.  Time to relax, watch Duck Dynasty then hit the hay.

Ass Burger...Huh?

Well I never thought the day we told our son he had Asperger's that it would turn into a giggle session.  We finally had the conversation that I dreaded and clearly it was for no reason.  We did it simply because we had a meeting at school with school administration including the school psychologist.  It was recommended we tell him so we did.

What made it so funny...we had to clarify that we said Asperger's not "ass burger".  The laughs just got worse after that.  God was definitely with us last night keeping the conversation light.  I'm happy to check that off my To Do List; now we can move forward.

Our meeting went well.  It makes me so proud to hear how sweet, well mannered, kind, and funny our boys are.  It's such a great feeling of accomplishment.  Nick's teachers had great things to say about him.  He has such a great relationship with them and is very comfortable. Now if only he would do his homework consistently he would more than likely be an A,B student.  That's our goal to achieve; it may be tough but it is a realistic goal.  We left the meeting feeling good and very optimistic about our sons future.

Today was an okay feeling day for me.  Still lots on my mind, still searching for answers, still stuck, but not giving up.  I'm looking forward to seeing what tomorrow brings my way...I'm praying it's all good, peaceful stuff.

There has been much on my mind this weekend...so much so that I even dreamed about what I am most concerned and perplexed about.  Even the dream was confusing.  There are no clear answers to this. I can only wait to see what time brings. There is an end in sight...although I am not sure when, how, or why I know it will be here sooner than later.

I am so thankful to God that my father is doing well after a car accident he was in.  They are concerned that he didn't remember anything so he will need to see a neurologist in the upcoming weeks.  He is a very very lucky man to have not been seriously injured.  God has surely been watchingg over him.

I am most thankful for my husband this weekend. We were able to accomplish so much this weekend mostly because of him. Thank you TJ!!

We have a meeting at school for our oldest to plan for high school...what a bittersweet meeting that will be.  I'm excited yet nervous.  I can't wait to hear what opportunities he will have.

I'm so excited for so many in my life.  One is my cousin who has a beautiful child with Anglemans syndrome.  They had a successful fndraiser for her this weekend!  Please keep this sweet little girl in your prayers.  I have a friend who will be going in to the hospital  to have her baby this week.  Such a blessing after a tough but successful pregnancy!  There are wonderful things going on all around me...it is such a pleasure to watch and to even be a part of some of it. 

We are all faced with so many challenges that can bring us down yet make us stronger but there is always so much more good; more than we may ever see.

Self Destruction...

due to loyalty. Probably the most profound thing I read this week. Now how do you stop it?

The day went pretty well and I'm excited to say, it was Jackass free.  I can't remember anyone aggravating me today.  Things seemed to go pretty smooth and it was just as productive as it was yesterday.

I did my two workouts today at work.  30 minute workout, 15 minutes of mobility stuff, then another 30 minutes.  It wasn't too bad, the workouts were pretty simple and went quickly.  So much so that we added on to them. 

Today was Day 2 of that darn fast.  I did well all day but broke down and ate dinner.  I was starving!  I had a very healthy dinner...no regrets here!  I weighed myself this morning and lost four and a half pounds.  I;m excited about the loss but not so sure I could go 3 full days doing something like this.

I got caught up in homework again and looking for a my sons book he lost so I wasn't able to get things done AGAIN tonight.  I lost it on my 13 year old; yes I flipped out (since he is so sweet he is exempt from Jackass status) and he is without his Xbox for now.  He was stunned and upset and although I was upset I am just too tired to deal with the same thing over and over again after a long day at work.

That's about it for tonight...until next time.

Fasting Sucks!

Nope, I am not happy...today pretty much sucked.  I was pretty satisfied throughout the morning but really struggled all afternoon.  Two more days to go of this then I'm done.

Aside from dealing with hunger today was a pretty productive day; a good day for the most part. I hope tomorrow goes well.  Some days are too unpredictable for me to handle.  I am disappointed that I didn't get some things done that I planned today once I got home.  The boys cleaned up a good part of the garage for me yesterday so I could start working out in there again.  I wanted to finish it up tonight and get started on some things but I got caught up with homework and I am just pooped besides.  Hopefully tomorrow evening I'll be able to get in there and do what needs to be done.  My other plan is to do both 30 minute classes at work on Tuesday and Thursdays.  There is a couple of reasons why I feel the need to start doing this, but one being that I feel like I just need more workout time.  I'm going to give it a try and see how I feel at the end of the week.  If it's too much then I will have to change my plan.

I'm not really looking forward to being hungry again tomorrow...I know crankiness will kick in and I'm sure I will offend someone in some unintentional way but I really don't think I'm going to give a flying flip.

On to more exciting things...I am very excited for the lady I am working with and the GREAT news he received today.  It's been a rough few weeks for her and, although I don't know all the fact, it looks likes thing will be working out well...Praise God for prayers answered!

I spoke to my mom tonight and there is a very good chance they will be going to FL the end of May for my nephews graduation. We are pretty excited about that!  It looks like we will be able to make it as well as my other brother and his family.  It doesn't look like my sister can make it, I'm hoping that will change.  It would be great to have our entire family together to celebrate Anthony's graduation and my mom's 70th birthday.

Something else I'm looking forward to is reuniting with a group of childhood friends!  We have plans to get together the beginning of August...we are all so excited.  Everyone will be driving to Charleston for a long weekend.  It is going to be amazing!!

I guess that's it for tonight.  I'm praying tomorrow will be a feel good, Jackass free day :)

Plan A, B, C.....Hmmm, No, I think I'm up to Plan Q...

Well here we are again...does it ever end?  No!  I can't let it, not yet.  What's the new plan...the new plan is to go back to the old plan.  I'm starting with a fast/detox then straight into clean eating <sigh>

The good thing is that there is much inspiration around me at home, at work and with friends.  I spent a couple of hours with a great group of ladies this afternoon who have their fitness plans; they are prepared and executing them.  We are gathering weekly for a small group bible study/support system.  We've been talking about doing this for a few months and we finally pulled it all together today.  Now that we have it started I think we will keep it going.

Today's church service hit me pretty hard today.  Tears ran down my face practically the entire time.  It gave me a lot to think about.  I struggle with the feeling that something was taken away from me before its time, that I was a convenience, used, disrespected then left to feel completely worthless.  A few months ago I vowed to push those feelings aside, and I did.  It's been great until things were stirred up again today.  But at the end of the message, it was said that because it didn't work or go as planned the first time doesn't mean it has to end.  This made me feel better; as if there were still hope for what I want to do and how I want to look and feel.

I found someone I think I just might be able to rely on.  Someone one who at times will be hard on me, even make me cry.  But that someone will always be here; never turn their back on me, walk away from me.  I won't ever have to worry about what this person is thinking, I'll always know.  There will be no guesses, no games, no assumptions, questions, concerns, misunderstandings...nothing like that. We start tomorrow...it's a new beginning...yes, ANOTHER new beginning, but a beginning nonetheless.