Today was a pretty crazy day. It was very emotional for me. I have a friend, someone I've known for over 20 years who is going through a real tough battle. We cried together, I cried alone, than cried this afternoon after we talked on the phone. My head felt like it was spinning all day I felt light headed and nausious most of the day I'm praying hard for her and her family. If anyone has any prayers to spare for her please do so.
Its always a successful day when I am stressed beyond belief and my eating stays on track. I feel so good about that. My anxiety had the best of me all day. I went through the shortness of breath stuff, headaches, all that fun stuff. Because of that I was unsure about going to boot camp tonight. BUT I have learned time and time again that when I am feeling that way I NEED to go and am I glad I did!! I felt great after our workout
Not only was the workout great as it usually is, we had lots of fun and some good laughs. The time spent tonight with Brent and the girls was exactly what I needed before heading home to my family.
Once I got home Tj and I had a nice dinner then we both rowed a thousand meters for dessert. Haha. Not quite a piece of chocolate cake, but it felt good. I even put the weight vest on. I really like that thing.
Monday, May 16, 2011
Sunday, May 15, 2011
I Don't Think I Can...I know I Can! I Think
Most people who know me know how I feel about running. I've never been able to run well or fast. For a long time I truly believed that if someone was coming after me with a huge butcher knife I would just lay down and let him kill me before I ran from him.
I have a friend who was contemplating a run. She, along with a bunch of others we know, are planning to do the Rock 'n Roll half/full Marathon in November. We were talking, going back and forth, about what she should do for at least 20 minute when I blurted out, "If you do it, I'll do it to!" I stunned myself and thought, "oh no, what did I just get myself into?"
Here I am committing to a half marathon when running is an absolute weakness of mine...yikes! I've walked a 5k and 10k a couple of times; I even ran a 5k in October of 2010, it took just under 45 minutes, but I ran it and was thrilled beyond belief. After that, I decided my running career was over haha.
So now that I made a commitment to a friend how to I get out of this? I don't, I can't! I have just under 6 months to prepare for this...that's plenty of time, right? Sure it is.
I told Brent all about how I committed to what seems like the impossible. We talked about it briefly and I said to him, "I may be asking you for a running plan soon." That was pretty much it, we didn't talk anymore about it.
Days later, during my one on one training, Brent said we are going to start training for your run today. Today? Really? Well ok. I was reluctantly excited about it, but excited none the less. I'm pretty sure my nervous giggle may have even presented itself. He explained to me how we would approach the training and what i would need to do outside of our regular training sessions. Most importantly I would have to get my eating back on track and be consistent with it!
After the training session I thought about a lot of things. I was trying to figure out why all of a sudden this run doesn't seem impossible like it did when I first committed to it. I came up with a couple of answers. One being more positive about running. I am working hard at not saying, "I hate running". I've decided that when I am running I'm going to fill my empty little head with happy thoughts. Imagery works well to for me. During runs I plan to imagine myself running an actual race and I picture myself crossing the finish line with the most important people in my life standing there waiting for me. Imagining this actually makes me cry haha. Mostly, while running, I will be praying. It amazes me how much that will help.
But the thing that got me most and made me feel confident about being able to complete a half marathon was when Brent went right into training me. He told me what he expected of me, what I needed to do, and what I really needed to focus on right now. I thought to myself, "He truly believes I can do this!" The crazy thing, to me anyway, was that it wasn't his words this time that convinced me, it was his actions. For the first time I felt like I didn't need to be convinced with words. There was no reason to talk or stress about it for days. It was so simple...I made a commitment to a friend, he knows I need help training for it, and now I'm training AND I feel pretty good about it! My plan was to not say a word about this to anyone. I have this amazing ability to want to do something so bad and just quit. I really dislike that about myself. But I've told a few people and received some great feedback.
I have no doubt that if I follow Brent's lead, be consistent, and stay on track with my eating, I WILL finish this run!
So, for the next few months, you'll be reading about a a girl, who used to hate running, and her journey to the "Start" of a half marathon.
I have a friend who was contemplating a run. She, along with a bunch of others we know, are planning to do the Rock 'n Roll half/full Marathon in November. We were talking, going back and forth, about what she should do for at least 20 minute when I blurted out, "If you do it, I'll do it to!" I stunned myself and thought, "oh no, what did I just get myself into?"
Here I am committing to a half marathon when running is an absolute weakness of mine...yikes! I've walked a 5k and 10k a couple of times; I even ran a 5k in October of 2010, it took just under 45 minutes, but I ran it and was thrilled beyond belief. After that, I decided my running career was over haha.
So now that I made a commitment to a friend how to I get out of this? I don't, I can't! I have just under 6 months to prepare for this...that's plenty of time, right? Sure it is.
I told Brent all about how I committed to what seems like the impossible. We talked about it briefly and I said to him, "I may be asking you for a running plan soon." That was pretty much it, we didn't talk anymore about it.
Days later, during my one on one training, Brent said we are going to start training for your run today. Today? Really? Well ok. I was reluctantly excited about it, but excited none the less. I'm pretty sure my nervous giggle may have even presented itself. He explained to me how we would approach the training and what i would need to do outside of our regular training sessions. Most importantly I would have to get my eating back on track and be consistent with it!
After the training session I thought about a lot of things. I was trying to figure out why all of a sudden this run doesn't seem impossible like it did when I first committed to it. I came up with a couple of answers. One being more positive about running. I am working hard at not saying, "I hate running". I've decided that when I am running I'm going to fill my empty little head with happy thoughts. Imagery works well to for me. During runs I plan to imagine myself running an actual race and I picture myself crossing the finish line with the most important people in my life standing there waiting for me. Imagining this actually makes me cry haha. Mostly, while running, I will be praying. It amazes me how much that will help.
But the thing that got me most and made me feel confident about being able to complete a half marathon was when Brent went right into training me. He told me what he expected of me, what I needed to do, and what I really needed to focus on right now. I thought to myself, "He truly believes I can do this!" The crazy thing, to me anyway, was that it wasn't his words this time that convinced me, it was his actions. For the first time I felt like I didn't need to be convinced with words. There was no reason to talk or stress about it for days. It was so simple...I made a commitment to a friend, he knows I need help training for it, and now I'm training AND I feel pretty good about it! My plan was to not say a word about this to anyone. I have this amazing ability to want to do something so bad and just quit. I really dislike that about myself. But I've told a few people and received some great feedback.
I have no doubt that if I follow Brent's lead, be consistent, and stay on track with my eating, I WILL finish this run!
So, for the next few months, you'll be reading about a a girl, who used to hate running, and her journey to the "Start" of a half marathon.
Friday, May 13, 2011
A pretty Good Day After All
Today turned out to be a pretty good day. Lots of craziness, some exciting news, a little bit of "what the heck" here and there, but a good day after all.
Looking forward to baseball tomorrow afternoon. Justin only has two games left this season...it went way to fast. After that some housework, and an evening out with some wonderful people. Sunday will be church, Sunday school, a softball game at noon then some more work around the house...fun fun! I'm seriously considering allowing the boys to paint their doors...I'm not sure but that could be a catastrophic event but a lot of fun to.
So proud of TJ for his hard work this week. Just want to thank him for what he is doing for our family. We love you!!
I can't believe school is nearing its end. i changed my hours for the summer, I'm excited! It I'm looking forward to spending time with the boys. I have lots of changes I want to make during the summer...I'm not so sure they will be as exciting as I am about it. One thing we will be working on is eating, my plan is to make some big changes in what they eat and kill off a few bad habits and manners. So...any prayers you would like to keep us in, please feel free to do so.
Looking forward to baseball tomorrow afternoon. Justin only has two games left this season...it went way to fast. After that some housework, and an evening out with some wonderful people. Sunday will be church, Sunday school, a softball game at noon then some more work around the house...fun fun! I'm seriously considering allowing the boys to paint their doors...I'm not sure but that could be a catastrophic event but a lot of fun to.
So proud of TJ for his hard work this week. Just want to thank him for what he is doing for our family. We love you!!
I can't believe school is nearing its end. i changed my hours for the summer, I'm excited! It I'm looking forward to spending time with the boys. I have lots of changes I want to make during the summer...I'm not so sure they will be as exciting as I am about it. One thing we will be working on is eating, my plan is to make some big changes in what they eat and kill off a few bad habits and manners. So...any prayers you would like to keep us in, please feel free to do so.
The Caveman is not extinct...
Well I heard from "The Caveman" today and although the challenge seems to have gone out the window for us, it sounds like there's great things going on for him that may help lots of others. Sort of disapointed this has come to an end so quickly, I was looking forward to learning his perspective to the Paleo diet. Here's what he had to say:
Hey Cavepeeps,
I'm sorry for flaking and not continuing the 50 day countdown challenge... I've been swamped with designing ANOTHER product (to help affiliates' businesses) for the greater CrossFit community worldwide.
I'm considering launching a YEAR TWO challenge but my bandwidth will determine.
Just briefly, regarding nutrition, I've started weighing and measuring each meal and completely restricted fructose for maximum effect. 19 days left!
Wish me luck.
Stay Strong. Stay Paleo!
- Caveman
I'm sorry for flaking and not continuing the 50 day countdown challenge... I've been swamped with designing ANOTHER product (to help affiliates' businesses) for the greater CrossFit community worldwide.
I'm considering launching a YEAR TWO challenge but my bandwidth will determine.
Just briefly, regarding nutrition, I've started weighing and measuring each meal and completely restricted fructose for maximum effect. 19 days left!
Wish me luck.
Stay Strong. Stay Paleo!
- Caveman
Lots of little crazy things going on this Friday the 13th...hope you are all having a good day!
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Its been a pretty good start to the week. Been feeling pretty good abut a few things but contemplating some others. Still lots of thing going on; all positive which is great but still stressful. I'm trying to stay focused on the positive aspects and the end result while trying to keep my attention as far away from the stress that is developing.
I had an appointment tonight that I was very excited about. Its a program that sounds like it has so much potential and I think my entire family could benefit form it. Its a huge commitment and would mean a lot of sacrifice. I really have to evaluate the meeting I had tonight and pray about it...hard. It's a tremendous change that could be more than beneficial or wreak havoc in a few lives.
I had an appointment tonight that I was very excited about. Its a program that sounds like it has so much potential and I think my entire family could benefit form it. Its a huge commitment and would mean a lot of sacrifice. I really have to evaluate the meeting I had tonight and pray about it...hard. It's a tremendous change that could be more than beneficial or wreak havoc in a few lives.
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Happy Mother's Day to All...
Hoping everyone had an amazing Mother's Day. This day is special to so many of us. I am beyond grateful for the children God has blessed me with. Even with the challenges we all face, Motherhood is without a doubt the most rewarding experience. I am so blessed to know so many great moms and to have one myself. From my own mom, my sister, sister-in-laws, and friends. There are many moms whom I don't even know that have touched me and helped me to become a better mom.
As glorious as Mother's Day can be my heart aches for all who have lost, given up, and could not accept the challenge God bestowed upon them. I know they must think about what could have been on a regular basis and with that comes a pain that will always be in the hearts of those who have experienced this.
Keeping all in a special prayer just for you tonight. God Bless!
As glorious as Mother's Day can be my heart aches for all who have lost, given up, and could not accept the challenge God bestowed upon them. I know they must think about what could have been on a regular basis and with that comes a pain that will always be in the hearts of those who have experienced this.
Keeping all in a special prayer just for you tonight. God Bless!
Saturday, May 7, 2011
It's Been Too Long...
I miss blogging! I miss sharing the craziness in my life. I thought it was helping me at first then I couldn't help but wonder if it started hurting me; now I wonder which it really was. I was able to get things out, which is a good thing. Its so hard to just talk about things to any one person so I wrote it down and whoever cared would read it and those who didn't want to or didn't have time to didn't have to. Does anyone out there have that one person? One person who understands, doesn't judge, doesn't react, makes sense out of things, is there at any given moment for you...does anyone really have anyone like that in their life? Not so sure a person like that exists.
Same old ongoing challenges and taking on a couple of old challenges that I gave up on with the hopes of not failing or at least not giving up again. There are 2 new challenges on the horizon, but nothing I can share right now. I feel pretty good about the new challenges only because it makes me feel as if I'm not as stagnant as I think I am. Seems like there is so much to do and never enough time in the day.
Working hard at trying to come up with a game plan for one of my little guys who seems to be struggling right now. He has me heartbroken. So many little things to consider and figure out. I don't think anyone could understand the impact something like this has on emotions unless they have a child of their own. Finding the right people to help is so hard and can be exhausting. There are days that I feel like Ive been beat up...I even look beat up at times haha. BUT I am smiling, I am happy just lost, frustrated, and tired at time.
I'm beginning to realize something about myself that I never wanted to believe. But I see signs of it almost daily. Its nothing bad, not really negative, its just a realization and I need to make some adjustments and I think my life will run more smoothly; it may even be less complicated and exhausting. I can at least give it a shot, I have nothing to lose.
Love this song. It make me think about how things should be.
Lead Me
Same old ongoing challenges and taking on a couple of old challenges that I gave up on with the hopes of not failing or at least not giving up again. There are 2 new challenges on the horizon, but nothing I can share right now. I feel pretty good about the new challenges only because it makes me feel as if I'm not as stagnant as I think I am. Seems like there is so much to do and never enough time in the day.
Working hard at trying to come up with a game plan for one of my little guys who seems to be struggling right now. He has me heartbroken. So many little things to consider and figure out. I don't think anyone could understand the impact something like this has on emotions unless they have a child of their own. Finding the right people to help is so hard and can be exhausting. There are days that I feel like Ive been beat up...I even look beat up at times haha. BUT I am smiling, I am happy just lost, frustrated, and tired at time.
I'm beginning to realize something about myself that I never wanted to believe. But I see signs of it almost daily. Its nothing bad, not really negative, its just a realization and I need to make some adjustments and I think my life will run more smoothly; it may even be less complicated and exhausting. I can at least give it a shot, I have nothing to lose.
Love this song. It make me think about how things should be.
Lead Me
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